With the final divorce decree this morning, my "bad" to-do list is done! 2011 was full of changes and heartache. Since the end of May when I separated from my husband of 7 years, I have said goodbye to my stepson that lived with us since he was 4 (full time since he was 8), sold my house, sold a lot of my belongings (via Craigslist, 2 garage sales and some awesome personal selling by my best friend Jess), packed up what was left for storage, and moved to my parents house. All while I was pregnant!
Now I have to say, I certainly didn't accomplish all of this on my own! I have had the support of some amazing people and my God to get me through. There is no other way it would have all gotten done. Period.
Through it all though, I wouldn't give up a second of 2011! God gave me a sweet little blessing this October... My son Easton was born. God knew Grayson and I needed him to complete our little family and my what a blessing he has been! I swear I have two of the best babies any mother could ask for!
And another blessing was the growth - spiritually and emotionally - that I've had this year in the midst of all these trials. God uses the trials in our life to bring us closer to Him. Laura Story's song "Blessings" sums it up better than I ever could! You should check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQan9L3yXjc&feature=youtube_gdata_player
So here it is, 2012. My last bad to-do is done. Even though I wish the outcome of my marriage could have been different, I trust that God will use this experience to His glory and that the boys and I have better days to look forward to.
Thank you God for all of my 2011 blessings - no matter what form they came in!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Peace Beyond Understanding
I have had a rough morning! I think everything that could happen to run me late did, but thank the Lord I made it to court on time and now I'm just waiting for my attorney to get here to prep.
Daycare wasn't ready for Grayson. Traffic on the interstate. Didn't know where I was going once I got here. Finally found a door that was open only to meet metal detectors that sent me back to my car with a random USB cord that was in my purse. Then wandered the building looking for the right courtroom. Whew! Now just sitting and waiting!
Grayson started his new daycare this morning. I swear it felt like I was dropping him off for his first day after maternity leave again. Except this time he ran off to go play as soon as I let his little hand go. I should be glad. And I really am. But I did have to shed a few tears too. Didn't even get to say bye to my little man! But like my devotional said today, God gives us peace and for that I am grateful.
Think that's going to be today's theme. I am currently waiting for my final divorce hearing to begin. Oh how this is not what I wanted! But sometimes we have to move on from certain parts of our life because they will never get better. At least that's what I'm learning. My prayer is that the boys dad will still realize the error of his ways...not for our marriage's sake...but for the boys and his own sake. Life is truly better when we are living it with God. I believe that and that's why I know my boys and my life is only going to get better from here. Again, God giving me peace for these troubled times here on earth.
I'm so glad he gives it because I certainly need it today!
John 16:33
"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."
Daycare wasn't ready for Grayson. Traffic on the interstate. Didn't know where I was going once I got here. Finally found a door that was open only to meet metal detectors that sent me back to my car with a random USB cord that was in my purse. Then wandered the building looking for the right courtroom. Whew! Now just sitting and waiting!
Grayson started his new daycare this morning. I swear it felt like I was dropping him off for his first day after maternity leave again. Except this time he ran off to go play as soon as I let his little hand go. I should be glad. And I really am. But I did have to shed a few tears too. Didn't even get to say bye to my little man! But like my devotional said today, God gives us peace and for that I am grateful.
Think that's going to be today's theme. I am currently waiting for my final divorce hearing to begin. Oh how this is not what I wanted! But sometimes we have to move on from certain parts of our life because they will never get better. At least that's what I'm learning. My prayer is that the boys dad will still realize the error of his ways...not for our marriage's sake...but for the boys and his own sake. Life is truly better when we are living it with God. I believe that and that's why I know my boys and my life is only going to get better from here. Again, God giving me peace for these troubled times here on earth.
I'm so glad he gives it because I certainly need it today!
John 16:33
"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."
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